Other than the fact that my post is a total TWSS, I thought it was about time I explain the title and subtitle of my blog.
I went to college directly after high school, just like most people are doing these days, and I was all excited about starting something new and being part of something different. I wanted to learn. I wanted to sing with an amazing director and choir. I wanted a new start. Perhaps part of the problem was that I didn't go far enough away from home... but I digress.
I lasted two years. At the beginning of every semester I was fine. I studied.. kind of, I did my homework... for the most part, I sang my heart out in choir and I showed up to class. Not even halfway through every semester, I started ditching classes, ignoring homework, and forgot about studying. I couldn't wake up in the morning, and would lie lethargically on my couch/bed and stare at the TV for hours and hours. I didn't take care of myself, my room was disgustingly messy, I made up excuses for myself and I almost gave up completely. I should have known that something was terribly wrong when I couldn't even get up to go to choir, my true love. I left my first college with a GPA of 1.8.
I found out three years after I dropped out of college that I had Lyme disease. By the way, it's Lyme not Lymes.. just fyi. I also found out I was allergic to gluten (wheat). Gluten is nothing compared to Lyme though. Lyme almost killed my mother, on more than one occasion, it made one sister so sick she had to do homeschooling, it made the other sister so sick that her boyfriend couldn't even deal with her and dumped her because of it, and it just pissed me off royally. When I found out I had it, my first fear was the fear of having to swallow pills and possibly to have a PIC or central line put in. #1. I don't do pills. I HATE pills. (I work in a pharmacy btw, which isn't ironic at all.) #2. I don't think I could take care of myself sufficiently if I had a PIC line put into my body whether it be in my chest or in my arm. That's just scary. My second thought when I found out I had Lyme was "Oh, well that explains a lot..." My doctor explained that I had probably had Lyme for the better of five to seven years. She also explained that I had a co-infection called Babesia which acts like Malaria, which explained a lot of the constant fatigue. She said that being allergic to gluten and not knowing it made it worse. Eating gluten also added to the fatigue.
After going on meds for the better half of a year, I noticed a great improvement in energy and overall feeling. I couldn't remember the last time I had that much energy. I lost close to 30 pounds when I was on meds and since I wasn't eating gluten anymore, it stayed off.
Luckily for me, I met a nice lady through the Lyme disease support group in our area and I was feeling so much better that she actually helped me get back to college. I owe her a lot.
I am now back in college for a second time, and much farther away from home :)
I met a whole new group of friends, who are amazing I might add, and I feel like I can truly be myself down here. I'm actually succeeding at college now and have managed to pull my overall GPA over 3.1 which is awesome!
That was probably too much information for one post, but whatevs, it's my blog... right?
Have a wonderful morning people, and remember that life is good :)
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